Failure .... just hearing it makes me cringe. To start the passage with all honesty I used to allow this word drain me of believing I could accomplish anything. At one point I really though “This is who I am and nothing can change that.”
I allowed this word to cloud my vision and to set me back from making things happen. As sad as it sounds the reality of it is that people truly feel this way. I felt like this for a very long time.
One day I was taking care of my neighbors daughter. While playing in my backyard we had been attempting to do kart wheels and after 8394939399393 times I had stated without realizing “Okay I quit I think I have officially failed at this” .... she said “My mom told me I’m no failure” and tried a couple more times .... next thing I know I see her flip that kart wheel effortlessly....... I stood there in awe trying to comprehend what just happened .... it literally blew my mind how a child at that age just didn’t allow a word to stop her from doing. I mean here I am an adult having a child who barely can tie her shoe dropping a gem on me like that ….. at that point I knew things had to change.
I began to venture. So here goes nothing, lets try to run. My first attempt at running a mile since high school was torchere.
I literally just wanted to pass out. Throughout my attempts I took mental notes. First note was realizing I died of hydration the first 30 seconds of my attempt. I already knew my diet was horrible. Intaking 6 donuts in an hour was my specialty. Everyday I pushed just a little more. I always completed 1 mile no matter what, even if I walked the entire thing. After about a month I ran a mile with no complaints. I just throw on my headphones now and play my playlist and just let my legs go. For that entire month I did a mile every single day ……. 3 years later I can hit 3 miles at 32 minutes on a treadmill. Everytime I feel like giving up I always hear 👂 my neighbors daughter’s motto “I AM NO FAILURE!”
When ever I am attempting something new, I remember it takes practice and each step is a lesson. I may not get it right the first go but practicing will allow me to perfect what ever my heart desires.